Sunday, July 15, 2012
Monday, July 2, 2012
High School Cheerleading Squad
United States Air Force
With my newly obtained faith came the courage to join the United States Air Force. The Air Force is a group that has had an unrivaled effect on my development as an adult. I entered into the military as a shy, insecure, almost broken child. And even in basic training, I begin to change. When I graduated from basic training, I had no doubt in my mind, that I could accomplish almost anything - if I worked hard enough for it. I spent seven years in the military. I graduated from Leadership Academy, deployed once, and truly learned what it meant to serve. I left the military bold, confident, secure, and ready to journey into the unknown. The military gave me a type of confidence that will last my whole life. Serving in the military enabled me to be unafraid and focused, and because of that, I was able to thrust myself into the next group, which is music ministry.
My whole life, I have loved music. But, I grew up in a very old fashioned home, and music was not an accepted priority or hobby. So, I never really developed much musically, but I still clung to music with a child-like hope. After I left the Air Force, my husband and I went to Iowa, where he was on Recruiting duty. It was there that we became part of a church planting team, and it was there that I first auditioned to be a part of a worship band. Being on the worship band was significant for me. It was something I never thought I was good enough to do. I was happy, but even so, being on the worship band was not a “dream.” It was a humbling, confusing time. I wanted more- I wanted to lead and play a larger part. Ashamedly, I found myself becoming jealous of others at times and frustrated with leadership. Ultimately, I learned that if you truly want to do something, then you will go through “the fire” to and let yourself be refined by it. In the long run, I decided that I would not run away or quit. I would not let myself be consumed by jealousy. I would prove my commitment by learning to be content where I was. I would be humble and patient. And in time, I learned to be content in my small part. That knowledge has helped me in ways I could never imagine.
This was just an excerpt, but it was very interesting to look back over my life and see how some of these "groups" influenced my development. I would like to close with this quote, from Joyce Meyers.
"But God had called me, and He qualified me. What others thought was not even usable, God saw value in." Joyce Meyers